Well, believe it or not, I actually hate food. I don't want to prepare it, eat it or even sit at the table and eat. For me food has always been associated with hate and fear. I always ate "food" that was quick and that I could eat mindlessly. I get frustrated because I know what I should do and more importantly how I should feel about food but...... I can't make myself feel that way! It is like I have tools set out in front of me but I just can't force myself to pick them up and use them.
I have been trained in nutrition and health and could tell you how you should take care of yourself but........ when it comes to me, I find myself incapable of practicing what I preach. I worked with Lisa Freitag, a nutritional coach, and was surprised that this path was fraught with emotional land mines. I cried for at least 10 of our first sessions. Oh I get it nutrition and health may have an emotional aspect. Duh. I still believe that I should still be able to do what was right and damn the torpedoes. It still doesn't work that way for me.
Now since I last left you I have been able to get out of the cave and sit by the road. Tonight I had Mary Dorr do some EFT (Emotional Freedom Techniques) with me and I got on the road and even am walking down it. I will continue to release the anger and sadness that I felt about not doing the right thing about my nutrition but as I said before I believe that I am on the right track. My question is why is this so hard?
I have been trained in nutrition and health and could tell you how you should take care of yourself but........ when it comes to me, I find myself incapable of practicing what I preach. I worked with Lisa Freitag, a nutritional coach, and was surprised that this path was fraught with emotional land mines. I cried for at least 10 of our first sessions. Oh I get it nutrition and health may have an emotional aspect. Duh. I still believe that I should still be able to do what was right and damn the torpedoes. It still doesn't work that way for me.
Now since I last left you I have been able to get out of the cave and sit by the road. Tonight I had Mary Dorr do some EFT (Emotional Freedom Techniques) with me and I got on the road and even am walking down it. I will continue to release the anger and sadness that I felt about not doing the right thing about my nutrition but as I said before I believe that I am on the right track. My question is why is this so hard?
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